Thursday, November 29, 2007

mommy revelations

a couple of neat revelations lately that i thought i'd share for as a reminder of what a miracle motherhood is and how much it truly teaches us about God's plan.
on the way home from thanksgiving at mique's house my dad put on amy grant's christmas. one of my favorite christmas songs came on and i loved listening to the lyrics again with a fresh new perspective:

I have traveled
Many moonless night
Cold and Weary
With a babe inside

And I wonder
What I've done
Holy Father
You have come
Chosen me now
To carry your son

I am waiting
in a silent prayer
I am frightened

by the load i bear
In a world as cold as stone

Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now
Be with me now

Breath of Heaven

Hold me together
Be forever near me
Breath of Heaven

Breath of Heaven
Lighten my darkness

Pour over me, your holiness
For your holy Breath of Heaven

Do you wonder
As you watch my face
If a wiser one, should of had my place

But I offer-all I am
For the mercy-of your plan
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me

of course this song is from mary's perspective, but i have such a new appreciation for the inadequacy she must have felt to be the mother of the son of God. as i listened to these words looking down at my sweet boy in the car, i started crying as i realized that i am a mother of a son of god as well and that He has put so much trust in me and will help me to raise this child if i will let Him. i love this season that reminds us of that tiny newborn babe, and it is so neat to experience it for the first time with our own tiny newborn babe.

i also loved reading this scripture this week:

"But behold, Zion hath said: The Lord hath forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me- but he will show that he hath not.
For can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yea, they may forget, yet I will not forget thee, O house of Israel.
Behold, I have engraven thee upon the palms of my hands; thy walls are continually before me."

i've read this so many times and at different times it has meant different things. but SO pertinent right now.


Madsen Family said...

Jess, I love the tender side of motherhood you are always so willing to share. I think that you must be the best little mommy ever. I just wish I could meet little O, as you so lovingly call him. And I like all his tricks. He is getting so big already. I can't believe I am going to have one of those in about two months. Yikes!

Holly said...

I love that song too! What a great reminder of the importance of motherhood! You must be a wonderful mother! Hopefully I'll be able to meet your little angel one day!

Mique said...

I'm glad you are taking the time to write all this stuff down and appreciate everything (you've always been so much better at that than me)....I love seeing you as a Mommy- it's even sweeter than I thought. Love you ;)

The Steele's said...

Thanks for the inspiration Jess.