Monday, September 22, 2008

like a bad boyfriend...

i know what you've been thinking.
maybe this thing we have going on here just isn't going to work.
i mean, it's not exactly fair that you give, give give, and really get nothing in return.
we did have a good thing going there for a while. back in the beginning, when i made more of an effort, things were exciting. we had a lot of fun then, didn't we? i used to post at least weekly, if not daily... wrote about my feelings of motherhood and the wonderful changes going on in my life... we were connected then.
ahh, the good old days.

i know, it's not you. it's me. i am guilty. I just have not been giving 100% to this relationship and i am sorry.
will you ever forgive me?
maybe you've already moved on and given up hope that i am even capable of such commitment. i don't blame you, really. can't say i wouldn't have done the same. but is there hope that we can give it one more shot? a second chance?
i promise i will be better!
i know i need to be more invested. i know i need to put more time into this. i know you deserve more. i know, i know.
so what do you say? can we start over?


7 comments:

Tracie said...

all is forgiven here, but only because i can totally understand your current state. once you are no longer super sick, i may not be so kind!!
but really, how are you feeling?

Michelle said...

You're a great blogger-- it comes and goes; it's all good!

I'm having fun checking out your sidebar links-- we read a lot of the same blogs and you've given me some new photographers to stalk.

Lauren said...

Ha Ha! Love it!! I was talking to my sis and she told me to tell you that she thinks you are a really talented writer (she checks in on your blog every once and a while). I agree! You are one of the most creative people I know!! Hope you are feeling better!

Mom said...

Remembering your bad boyfriends doesn't make me want to read your blog!!!! Just glad you have moved on!!!

Love you tons!

amy said...

oh jess, don't be so hard on yourself. your blog is fabulous! who has the time to blog everyday anyway? you do a great job at keeping us updated on your life. of course if you want to blog more often we'll take it! ;)

Madsen Family said...

Jess, I obviousbly love your blog b/c I'm always checking it to look for updates...I think it's because you're so real, honest and you tell it like it is. My friend Taraka (remember Taraka) told me she likes to stalk your blog because you're so cute and real. So, please don't leave us...

Proud mom of 7......... said...

i never gave up or doubted your commitment. life happens...

keep it up xoxo~aunt lisa